I got the following mail from a friend of mine, Vinaya Natarajan, and wanted to share it on this blog:
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"So here we were in Osaka on Sunday night. We had bought something called a Kansai Thru Pass that let us roam around Osaka, Kyoto and Nara. Japan is truly a great place. We found the people very respectful, the place very clean, modern and rich in history. Most of our time was spent in visiting the temples, which were quite different to the Indian ones. For one, they were no pujaris, no pujas just the shrine, or the Buddha. The temples were often located in beautiful, scenic places. We would have walked about 10-15 kms each day, and by day 3 we were dead tired. We just made it to the train to take us to the airport and heaved a sigh of relief when we boarded the flight.
As soon as dinner was served, I dropped off to sleep. We were awoken in a few hours with a scary announcement. “The plane is going to make a emergency landing at Guam due to technical difficulties. Cabin crew please prepare for landing”.
We could smell burning rubber, but we had no clue what was happening. For the next 20 minutes we didn’t get any further instructions apart from “Please review the safety instructions in the booklet in front of you and mark your emergency exits”.
I immediately started to focus within. I wanted to be in peace. On one side, I could feel my mind getting flustered, on the other hand, I was trying to reach out to the place of calm and strength within. I thought that this could be the end but suddenly a sense of calm had over-powered me. I was connected! I held Kushals hand at one point to re-assure him, he also seemed to be doing OK.
The one feeling that I felt was that it was fine, whatever happened was fine. I was ready. There was never a feeling of regret or things that had to be done or things I could have done. Life was complete and gratitude was there. I felt love for my parents, husband and also a sudden feeling of love towards my brother!! (I enjoy having silly fights with him all the time!)
There had been a fire in the cockpit. The captain announced just after the plane landed safely. We had a great time at Guam afterwards. But something had changed. I asked Kushal whether the experience was positive or negative and he said “It was a very positive experience, for the first time, I thought about my own death.” Kushal is usually a very logical and scientific person. I told him “You know you can be extremely scientific and logical, but that is not going to help when death is coming.”
That was the biggest thing that I took with me from this incident. Of course, in this case, had there been a major catastrophe, there was time to prepare for death, but sometimes death can hit so suddenly it can catch you unawares!
I was feeling rather complacent with myself afterwards, but the only person, the only one that can take credit for helping me in this time of crisis was my teacher. His words, his effort to continually remind me that such a time will come where all else will fail came true but the strength within was there.
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priya
1 comment:
Preparing for death, how lovely that Priya is so pre-prepared...she immediately goes to the place of peace. This is a something which has been at the forefront of my mind during this period of being with my old mother in her nursing home: old age, dementia and death are constant reminders, teachers. I read a book about early-onset Alzheimers attacking a 50-year-old Harvard professor, her whole life in her mind.... It was so sad, so sobering, as i put myself in her position, as a noted my own memory lapses even now (at 66), and went through the fear to acceptance. Like we lose our flexibility, or our hearing, or our sight as we get older, so it can happen that we lose our minds....all the senses are withdrawing,...there is something so deeply instructional to contemplate on that loss of sense... on the in-breath and out-breath of life and death, and to take a position outside the duality... try, relax, try, relax... :-)
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